Hide (Move your mouse to the hide area to reveal the content) Show Hide Hide Hide yesterday it stormed my dog reacted viscerally fear. in light of this, my family saw red but this only engendered more darkness fear. i thought to myself abt how this interaction isn't so much different than my own life the way trauma causes me to perform in fear. my beloved companion delilah was lambasted while she was down unable to grasp why fear. i've the capability to interrogate my body but despite that i always resort to the same defense mechanisms fear. and what's even more weird is that people tend to react comparably confusion espouses anger because that seems to be the default when met with fear. and there always tends to be the silent bystander in this case, it was me just one comment just one person can heal someone in fear. perhaps it isn't weird perhaps it's learned kinda like my scars the way i'm stuck in the world unable to reposition and translate my defense mechanisms stagnant in fear. our scars are meant to be beautiful to show off what we've been through to act as reminders of our resilience of our courage, of our strength, our of compassion, in times of fear. i've come to the realisation recently why all my loved ones seem damaged too we've weathered the storm of life our privilege of ignorance has been forsaken it seems like the most empathetic and loving of people i've met have been met with fear. but i don't wish this upon everyone i don't think we have to face it in its repugnance to be whole so i'll act as a reminder to not be that bystander to promote empathy, to act against hatred its origin to make the world devoid of fear.